:: 2003 8 February :: 6.53 am
:: Mood: complacent
:: Music: Led Zeppelin (the cd parker gave me)
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I like my southern club hat, and also, one other thing. I’m happy.
I thought I had this problem, see, but.. Well, this boy that is completely Muffin… for the time being, anyways. We have something going on. It’s something kind of nice, and he makes me really happy. That’s enough, right? Because whatever it is, we have a great time. The thing being that the best moments I don’t really understand why it’s not considered a relationship.. Um.. you know. But he’s sweet. And he’s really CUTE, dammit.
Can you tell? I want in his pants.
So the problem? This other friend of mine. Happens to be an ex-boyfriend, but that’s beside the point. So he’s turned nice recently which is amazingly cool.. and he sort of explained that he didn’t want a girlfriend even though he’s going out with the friend of a day student. He said it was okay because as soon as she cheated, they could break up.. and he had to have someone to cheat with once she hooked up with another guy. So, he’d been talking to my friend online, and he asked me, “so will you help me out?”
of course i said Sure, Why not? and then asked if he meant bring tess up to NJ. No, he meant me. I said, yeah.. as long as there’s nothing going on with [Muffin] that it might really fuck up, sure.
I DO have something going on with him and it’s GREAT! (!) Then I said, “score, dragging the leftovers for hookups!” and he said, “Score! after breakup feel-good hookup!”
Oops.
So I don’t WANT to or anything, last night’s….
(i took these names out, or i tried at least!)
XXXXXX: hey
Elbies14: not bad for an un-snow day!
XXXXXX:i just saw you walk across the bowl haha i knew you’d be online
XXXXXX: not for me it wasnt
: im destroyed
(INFIRM TALK)
: im so bored
: come visit me?
Elbies14: bleh
Elbies14: i’m defrostign my feet with a hair dryer
Elbies14: it’s almost dinner though
: in 25 minutes
Elbies14: twenty-one
: ah yes
Elbies14: i’m melting
: c’mon, come see me 
please
: so bored
Elbies14: i can amuse you by describing how i have lot of snow in my pants and in my shoes
Elbies14: okay that died though
: haha whatever you say
Elbies14: can you move?
Elbies14: or, basically just drag yourself around in a sedated bubble
: i can walk outside
Elbies14: mmmh my feet are thawed
: you’re going to dinner anyways, you shouldnt havee done it
Elbies14: oh!!!
Elbies14: tomorrow is saturday!!!
: yeah it is
(BLAH BLAH)
Elbies14: same thing i do every night, pinkie
: try to, er… get out of study all!
Elbies14: i want some milk
Elbies14: my heater is broken
Elbies14: and those are the only two complaints i can come up with
Elbies14: so i must be happy
Elbies14: la la la time for dinner, or at least time to move my left foot so that i’ll get down the stairs in the next twenty minutes
: haha
: want me to wait for you outside, so you have someone to walk w/?
: or you got some people you goin w/
Elbies14: hmm. well. i could always kidnap nikol.
Elbies14: no i think not, i dont really feel like catching the pessimism
: i can wait outside our dorm
Elbies14: cya there
Elbies14: lol
: aight, cya
LATER:
: when you come back, i need someone to rest on, im in a lotta pain
Auto response from Elbies14: AdVeNtUrEs At IrWiN!!![away message]
LATER STILL:
: that was a really great hug, i did cut it short only because ross was there, not to weird him out or throw him off
Auto response from Elbies14: AdVeNtUrEs At IrWiN!!![away message]
STUDY HALL:
: hey
Elbies14: hey X
Elbies14: this is so odd
Elbies14: not feeling guilty
: what is?
Elbies14:
: about what
Elbies14: about the BODY IN MY CLOSET
Elbies14: about not working in study hall
: oh haha
: i never do
Elbies14: lol
: how’s your hat? im sorry about that
Elbies14: oh whatever i don’t care
: my hat*
Elbies14: safety pins
: they dont bother you when you wear it?
Elbies14: oh
Elbies14: well
Elbies14: i’ll figure it out
: staples
: brb
: wow im retarded
Elbies14: really?
Elbies14: how so
: whoops. haha wrong im
Elbies14: well how are you retarded?
Elbies14: lol
: its nothing
: im retarded when it comes to girls sometimes
: not what i do w/ them exactly, but when i do things always messes it up for me
: like having a gf now
: SO dumb
: its great but it cut off a lotta people
Elbies14: yes
Elbies14: it did
Elbies14: :-\ you still have 3 and a half years
: haha how do you know all this
: besides the fact that i probably told you
: you feel you’re one of them?
Elbies14: i’m miss cleo
: oh lol ok then
: haha
: but yeah, now i cant get outta my gf
: in two weeks i could though, she’ll probably want out too
Elbies14: so
Elbies14: why… can’t you just…
: dump her?
Elbies14: no offense of course
Elbies14: well if you weighed it
: im too soft
Elbies14: oh
: well i could
: but she’d be really depressed
: and that would put * and * and * really hot friends against me for a little while and it will be annoying
Elbies14: oh
Elbies14: good point
: that wouldnt be bad
: they dont like me anyways
: well * kinda does, as a friend we used to be tight
: but *’s a fuck
: and tara’s friends are really hot
Elbies14: lol
Elbies14: well, obviously you just need her to cheat first
: exactly
: im a one chance person for about the first two months
: so she’d be gone
: she’s at a party tonight
: maybe this is it
Elbies14: you could do a native american cheating dance
: oh yeah she’s at this guy pete’s party
Elbies14: is he sexy?
: i dunno
: he isnt the only guy there though
: she really likes me
: but she’s a ho
: so i dont trust her
Elbies14: haha
: she said she’d be good
Elbies14: ew
Elbies14: lol
: be good as in not cheat on me haa
: ugh i really dunno
: no wonder i didnt havea girlfriend for over a year
Elbies14: would you like me to remind you next time you’re considering it?
: indeed
Elbies14: heheh
: jeez
: i should make the person ask me out damnit
: girls can do it after a while
Elbies14: ?
Elbies14: what would that accomplish
: itll take her a while
: and if they do i can just say lets wait
: so i can get to know the situation well, and really decide if having her as my gf is worth it
: while still playing my options
Elbies14: i’m going to bet that you’d be much better off without a girlfriend
: right now or in general
Elbies14: since you think about planning this out
Elbies14: umm, in general, but specifically right now
Elbies14: not forever
Elbies14: but you told me once why you didn’t have girlfriends
: trying to get my to dump my gf huh
Elbies14: umm.. well, it made a lot of sense
: what was my reason? i need refreshing
Elbies14: hmm
Elbies14: because you could stick with one girl, but it’s not so easy for you
: ah yes
Elbies14: and because you didn’t 1.) want to hurt people by cheating or 2.) not let yourself follow out on what you want to do
: and thats true
: so what the fuck am i doing
Elbies14: umm… you had about an hours worth of reasons but rest assured they were all good ones
Elbies14: twenty four hours later we were in our first freshmen year relationship
Elbies14: dumb freshmen
: you gotta admit, i had good reasons in the beginning though too right?
: haha no no i said that when we broke up
: #1 anyways
: 2 i said beforehand
Elbies14: heheh
Elbies14: well the reason you have a girlfriend is because you’re fucking convincing
: well tara took no convincing
Elbies14: i’m not that surprised
Elbies14: she seemed to be very into you
: she is
: thats why she’s hard
Elbies14: ?
: but yeah i am convincing, i shouldnt comvince into relationships
: she’s hard to dump
Elbies14: ah hah
: i wonder if she could dig the whole friends w/ benefits thing instead of dating
Elbies14: hmm
Elbies14: probably not
Elbies14: then again
Elbies14: … i like what i have with [*M]
: no
: because he didnt dump you and say that
Elbies14: but whenever i’m happiest it always FEELS like we’re IN a relationship
Elbies14: wait huh?
: i hafta dump her now
Elbies14: why?
: then ask her about the friends w/ benefits thing
: no no
: im just saying
: w/ you and [*M] you didnt get all the way in like i did
Elbies14: ooooh i see sorry
: no problem
: you know the song in too deep? by sum 41
Elbies14: hahHh
: its perfect for me
: for this situation
Elbies14: c’est parfait
: ?
: english please
Elbies14: i think it’s perfect
Elbies14: i’m going to have to get a cookie
Elbies14: i’m dying
: very cool
Elbies14: they smell so good
: who has them
Elbies14: katie henessy’s dad owns otis spunkmeyer..
Elbies14: he bought our dorm a cookie oven
: what??
Auto response from Elbies14: FOOD.
Elbies14: he bought us a cookie baker. like a special oven for cookies, wirth lotsa cookie dough.
Elbies14: mnum mnum mnum cookies
: yumm
: all i have are chips
: a supersize bag of tostitos
: but they’re so good
Elbies14: i love tostitos..
Elbies14: they make me happy
Elbies14: but
Elbies14: i think
that i have a defect
Elbies14: i cant STOP eating them
: tostitos?
Elbies14: yes?
: well its not the only thing you eat
Elbies14: i dunno if that was an insult!
: not exactly
Elbies14: if it is then fuck yourself, if not, can i have some tostitos?
Elbies14:
: sure
: you can have the rest too
Elbies14: you’re beautiful
: thanks
: i hope that wasnt sarcasm
: lol i didnt mean the rest of the bag, so i was expecting sarcasm
: but yeah i guess ill give you them
: i want something in return though
Elbies14: no no i don’t need your tostitos
: oh
: im beautiful anyways? hehe cool
: or not i guess
Elbies14: eep i forgot about you
: oh thanks a lot
: brb
LATER.. AGAIN..
(you can start reading here..)
: hey
Elbies14: boo
: scary
Elbies14: whatcha doin tomorrow?
: not too sure, i think i hafta go to the wrestling meet then my gf’s coming here and we’re gonna chill
Elbies14: oh oh oh neat
: sarcasm? haha
Elbies14: oh no
Elbies14: not at all
Elbies14:
Elbies14: lol
: go make out w/ [*M]
Elbies14: huh?
: ha
: take that
: its an insult
Elbies14: what?
Elbies14: hehe
Elbies14: i’d love to
Elbies14: is he here?hehe
: why, is he hot?
Elbies14: i like [*M]
Elbies14: thats why
: meaning he isnt
: and then again if you think that way all the time you didnt thing i was, wtf haha
Elbies14: ummm i reeeeeally didn’t get that sentence
: cmon lucy you’re smart
: but ill explain
: you said you like [*M] when i asked if you think he’s hot
: so its basically a no
Elbies14: oh
Elbies14: no
Elbies14: [*M] isn’t really hot
: and you hooked up w/ me, so i was inferring it was the same reason
Elbies14: he’s cute though
Elbies14: hahaha
Elbies14: you’re more hot
Elbies14: no offense
Elbies14: i mean, that was a really retarded comment
: no offense? haha guys lose to hear that
: love*
Elbies14: [*M] is more.. cute
: ah ok
: i thought i was cute too, its possible to be both right?
Elbies14: yes
Elbies14: it is.
: good
: haha i cant remember who it was but i think it was * or *, either one, they were like look lucy’s w/ [*M] now, i was like yeah, they said she’s hot, i agan responded yea she is, i know, and then they were like you’re retarded, she’s hot stupid, i was like ya i know, damnit, oh well
: so it not a one sided deal
Elbies14: heheh
: yeah i messed up, im lucky you’re forgiving
Elbies14: oh jeez i’m just glad its ok now
: its weird, we’re back to were we started
Elbies14: well, when you start as friends, its not THAT weird..
: one of us laying on the other, the really great hugs…
Elbies14: oh well that?
Elbies14: haha
Elbies14: i think it’s a good place
: only diff. is we have other people
: it is
Elbies14: all true but it’s freshman year and so far it’s GOOD
Elbies14: grrr i wish i could freeze “now” though
Elbies14: too picky heheh
: now being how so?
: everything?
Elbies14: everything except my math grade!!
: haha
: those things happen
: i hope my gf cheated on me
Elbies14: heheh
: you’re still there as my last backup right?
: in case this goes as planned
Elbies14: ummm not if there’s something with [*M]that it would fuck up
: but right now how’s [*M]
: (this is my way of actually finding out what you think of him because you never tell)
Elbies14: ehhe sneaky
: did it work?
Elbies14: ummm…
Elbies14: i’m thinking
Elbies14: lol
Elbies14: i don’t really know what to call it
Elbies14: which is why i don’t constantly rant on it
: well you dont hafta worry about him getting w/ other girls
Elbies14: whats that one supposed to mean..
: nothin
: just a comment. but wat u have with [*M]?
: a hookup
: and an amigo
: a friend w/ some benefits
Elbies14: mmmh i guess that’s it, yeah
: i have a gf
: i could have so much more, but whatever, itll come
Elbies14: more than a gf?
: more people
: w/ almost no commitment
: but whatever
: im off to bed
Elbies14: ah hah
: cya tomorrow
Elbies14: hehe
: g’night
Elbies14: hope tara cheated
Elbies14: see ya
: for your sake too? haha adios
Elbies14: lol
Elbies14: suuureee, no, lol. bye
* signed off at 11:25:52 PM.
so i had to explain this to nikol which convinced me that it’s nothing after all, just friendly
it’s saturday!
